Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
THE PROUST QUESTIONNAIRE
What is your idea of perfect happiness?
a light heart and a peaceful mind at rest.
What is your greatest fear?
making the wrong decision.
What historical figure do you most identify with?
(i'll have to think through this one)
Which living person do you most admire?
erin foster. i hope she doesn't read this...that would be awkward.
What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
manipulation.
What is the trait you most despise in others?
ignorance.
What is your greatest extravagance?
picking up the check.
On what occasion do you lie?
if it keeps others from harm.
What do you dislike most about your appearance?
i try not to focus on that.
Which living person do you most despise?
funny-i can't think of a soul.
Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
i mean... or ya know?
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
i'd want to be happier more consistently.
If you could change one thing about your family, what would it be?
n/a.
What do you consider your greatest achievement?
vulnerability.
If you could choose what to come back as, what would it be?
a butterfly.
Who are your favorite writers?
this list goes on and on. my sister, caitlin, sue monk kidd, orson scott card, and sabrina ward harrison to name a few.
Who is your favorite hero of fiction?
ender wiggin.
What is your most treasured possession?
my passport.
What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
doubt.
Where would you like to live?
Where wouldn't I like to live?
What is your most marked characteristic?
well, now my pink hair probably.
What is the quality you most like in a man?
loyalty.
What is your greatest regret?
either being dumb and doubting, or being too smart and seeing clearly.
What or who is the greatest love of your life?
books, films, and music.
If there is a Heaven what would you like to hear God say when you arrive?
"i didn't do anything because..."
Friday, November 28, 2008
what i want.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Expectations.
-Daniel Gilbert
quote from Stumbling on Happiness
Sunday, November 16, 2008
sometimes.alexllyod. letitrain.okgo.
The traffic is jamming
For miles up ahead
Releasing emotions
Deep in my head
I wish it was easy
Easy to breathe
The words that we needed
To get some relief
I still hear you crying, then I see you smiling
Even when I close my eyes
Sending a rescue
Coming to find you
Do you think that we could save another day
Try not to break down
Walking the old ground
I don't want to throw the life we had away
Blocked up and cluttered
Tired we stand
Alone together
Was just not the plan
Something undenying
In the underlining
Even if I close my eyes
Sending a rescue
Coming to find you
Do you think that we could save another day
Try not to break down
Walking the old ground
I don't want to throw the life we had away
i don't want to throw the life we had away.
Let it rain, Let it pour
Let it rain, Let it pour
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Let it rain, Let it pour
Cruise-control distressed, her kind of cursed and kind of blessed, engine running on the fume
Vision blue and blurry, falling angels in a flurry, spinning thru the empty room
Did you come here to dance?
What's in your glass?
Do you feel better now?
Let it rain, Let it pour
Let it rain, Let it pour
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Let it rain, Let it pour
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Chills.
Going Green.
Monday, November 3, 2008
Who am I? and why am I here?
Today I had the extreme pleasure of grabbing lunch with my dear friend Jenna, who I hadn't seen in ages, which was highly unfortunate seeing as how much she inspires me. We talked a lot about purpose- why we are here. I really wish I knew why I am here so I could start fulfilling my purpose, but honestly, maybe I have already started. Or maybe I should stop sitting around waiting to know my purpose and go out and find it, or rather, create it for myself. What makes me tick? What makes my world spin on its axis? What brings me joy? I am suddenly finding myself with more free time, although I haven't really felt very inspired to do anything with it, maybe now is a good time to start. I need to get involved in something that will make this world a better place. I need to get involved in something that will feed and honor my soul. Maybe volunteer work? But what org? Maybe a job? But where? These are all kinks I need to kick out on this journey, but at least I am starting to feel inspired enough to get out of bed and do something but cry and dwell. I need to find something that will help define who I am, who I am becoming. Also, although this is just in its beginning stages and may very well never come to pass, I have begun to research a new major--art therapy. That would include WAYYYY more school than I want to be a part of and a change of schools, and well, location probably. I don't think I'm ready to be done with chicago yet, but I can't seem to find an undergrad program here for it, so if that is the path I choose, chicago wouldn't be an option until grad school. Maybe it is time to go. I wanted to run, maybe this is my key to walk. Maybe I'm supposed to run. In the past sometimes running brought me to beautiful places. Also, I have been researching going to London next fall. Maybe that's where I am supposed to be? Maybe maybe maybe maybe. I don't know what's going on and what it needs to be, but I know something needs to change. I want to find my purpose. I want to impact this world.